I recently signed up for a My Space account in order to look at some of my other friends' pages. I don't blog or anything over there...I will not cheat on you Blogger! Well low and behold someone found me. My old boyfriend from high school, Jeff, looked me up and sent me an email. So we have been chatting via email for the last few days. (nothing weird...I more think of him as a brother type pal than anything else) When I asked Dan if it made him feel jealous he just laughed at me.
You know it's funny. Over the last few years he has been on my mind alot and I never knew how to contact him. I couldn't understand why he would be popping into my thoughts so much. When that happens, I just figure that person must need prayer about something. As it turns out Jeff has been through so much in the last 2 years. He is in the army and has been deployed to Kosovo and Afganistan as well as having his marriage take a turn for the worst. He has been through hell. I can understand why now he has been so often in my heart to pray for him.
He was the sweetest guy back in the day. It'll be fun to get to know him again.
I remember when he married his wife back in 1998 he came to town and called me to invite me to his reception. I was so surprised he was married, but really happy for him. Dan and I had been dating for a year or so, but he was out to sea on his midshipman cruise to Japan. So I decided to go alone. My mom told me she thought it was a bad idea. Whatever for??
So I went and saw his family who I had totally loved and missed seeing. I'm not sure how his wife felt about me being there so I started feeling uncomfortable. Then one by one different guests started coming up to me and putting their hands on my shoulder saying things like, "How are you holding up?" or "This must be hard for you." I felt eyes on me looking at me like I was about to have a meltdown over my broken heart that he had married someone else. It never really 0ccured to me that people would think that! Jeff and I dated when were kids and never really planned on getting married and we stayed good friends after that. I was so embarrassed that I walked into the garage and burst into tears. To make the moment even more humiliating Jeff's brother was in the there. He was this gruff mean looking guy who was always SO sweet to me. He came over and gave me a hug and said, "I always hoped it would have been you." For God's sake, what kind of hell trap did I get myself into?? I collected myself and got the heck out of dodge. How humiliating. My face is red just thinking about it after all these years.
After that I will never go to a wedding alone!!
I've missed you, dear Diary.
22 hours ago