I have realized over the last few months how lonely I am. Which seems silly since I have 3 kids and wonderful husband and family all around me. But I am. And, much unlike my character, I have decided to do something about it. I have a few close friends that I spend time with. But other than that, I am pretty lonely during the day.
On a few occasions I have ventured to the park looking for other moms and even walked over to strike up a conversation. Normally, this is my worst nightmare. And to be honest, it really isn't "a walk in the park" for me...but something I have to FORCE myself to do. So far, no luck making any friends...
I've tried making plans with old friends too, but busy schedules always get in the way. I guess the loneliness of being a stay at home mom didn't really hit me until recently. And it is especially prevalent when Dan is away. I spend all my time lurking around my parents' house. So by the time Dan does get home they are exhausted and happy to see him. LOL.
Today I went to my Weight Watchers meeting instead of my usual Monday. And there was actually some young moms there with their kids. I think I am going to switch to Wednesdays now so maybe I can meet some people. (BTW - I am down 8.6 lb!!)
Why is making friends as an adult SO much harder than when you were kids? Why was it so easy back then to walk up to a stranger and say, Wanna be my friend? If you do that to some random woman at the park she'd smile timidly and quickly walk away.
So I am putting myself out there. Which I am finding incredibly painful. But I am determined to find some new friends to spend time with. If Dan is going to stay in the Navy, I am just gonna have to learn to make new friends. So here goes...
4 months ago